From Here?

Where does it go? May that be what is so bittersweet about life? The world we live in is an ever changing one and nothing ever seems to remain constant. That could be why we value consistency so highly. At times it seems like the world is against you and at times it seems like you can't be stopped. How can you tell which one is real?

How do you make your mark on the world when starting from scratch? How many times would someone in their adult lifespan claim to be starting over finically, in their career, with a marriage or relationship or with friends? There more I think about it, the more I can see people relating to it greatly.

What do you do when you have no college education and no money. Where do you go from here? Do you work paycheck to paycheck to live in an apartment and pay car insurance where you save just enough a month to slightly enjoy yourself? Then maybe one day you've saved up over the years your credit is good enough you can get a house and a car and then you work way more to pay those 2 things off. Not to mention if you want to start a family or go back to school to get a better job. Also dental and doctor appointments, any sort of leisure vacation time, gas, clothes, food, etc. This is why I say its like life is backwards. Its like we want to be happy but as we get older we get jaded by life and what is happy is what money brings us. We get educated to go to school to get a good job so that we can afford some of this. Its replacing our happiness with money, like a placebo. We work so hard for a paycheck doing something we may not like and that paycheck is supposed to bring us happiness replacing what may truly bring it. As humans we all view happiness in a different light and what makes us happy variates.

Concentrating on yourself is hard enough but when trying to find someone to share yourself with is pushing the limits on what we can handle. Its almost one or the other. Few are lucky to do both.

I just want to be happy. I'm starting from scratch and trying to find my way has become increasingly difficult. Does that mean this is the way to go? Or does that mean try a different route? I have something I can't give up on. I will try 100% one time to make it work. Idk when but I will. Before that time and after that time I have no clue what is going to happen. I am nervous though.

Birthday Post

My birthday was yesterday. I turned 21. Every year physical changes are minimal but mental changes are maximum. Last year I turned 20 and remember what I knew then. This year I turned 21 and know so much more. I am in different finical states, changed a lil physically but thats about it. None of those things matter. I got to go see the Orlando Magic play yesterday, I had courtside seats. It was amazing. One of best birthdays I've had. I try not to expect too much on my birthday. People who don't talk to me for 364 days of the year finally say 2 words to me on one day. Keep it. I'm ok. I'm heading to las vegas on the 30th and new york city on the 18th. Finishing the year with a small bang. My old friends will be home for christmas so I look forward to seeing them.

Music is going good. I haven't written in a while but instead producing alot. Selling beats seriously has become a real thing that me and my co-producer are close to reaching. I am still all in all down 4 my own music though. I hav personal things going on and i'm re-focusing my thoughts on the inside. My best advice is to 4get about me. I'll make you remember when I finish. I'm closer than you think. Money may be an issue though when it comes to promoting. That may be a holdup. Im not doing this half ass.

I came in this world by myself and I know i'm leaving by myself, so I'm on my own.

Happy 21st to myself,
CHARTT

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

We can be listening to the same song and yet 1 connect to it and 1 doesn't. 2 everyone certain music reflects things in their life such as periods of time in their life, transition periods, trigger memories or thoughts, etc. Not that it may matter to that many people but I thought I'd share some of the songs that fit me in this light. I think through these type of songs you can understand a person truly better. The trick is knowing which songs do this for that certain person and knowing what it reflects 4 them. 

1. "Staring at the world thru my rearview" by Tupac --> reflects for me the world in its current state. It shows how little we as people have changed since he made this song. 

2. "Life is a Bitch" by Z-Ro --> makes me think about a time in my life when I took things 4 granted like they were going to be there 4ever. Smh @ that time in my life, I see alot of flashbacks in my head when I listen to it

3. "Charlene" by Anthony Hamilton --> I feel like its a splitting image of myself as anthony hamilton and with the only girl I loved and let it slip it away. It tells how and the overall message, especially the hook, depicts my feelings toward her almost perfect. 

4. "Sooner Than Later" by Drake --> I was showed this song and didnt understand it at first. One day I was driving and it all hit me. It's very similar to "charlene" but a lil more detailed. I'm impressed how drake captured my exact feelings in this song. It's about how you realize you really loved this girl after the smoke settles and when you go to tell her, she is in love with someone else. =( 

5. "I Need You" by Lil Boosie --> Boosie uses the pronoun "You" to replace "Money". That's all this song is about. I was a senior in high school and I listened to this song over and over and over when I had no money. Then I started selling dope. The beginning of those days is what I reminisce about when I listen to this song.

6. "Homecoming" by Young Buck --> When I lived in New Mexico I used to listen to this around july/august before I moved back to Florida. It's about being on the road all the time and how it feels good to be home. It makes me feel like only I understand the places I've been, lived and seen. I just think about all those places, feelings and thoughts I'd have. It's something way bigger than myself. 

7. "Must Be Nice" by Lyfe Jennings --> I've been listening to this for about a year, not too long but it does hit home. It's kind of a structure of this girl whose understanding, caring and complex. Almost perfect, but I wouldn't say that. This makes me think about that girl, and also makes me wonder if the guys who have girls like this or close to actually can cherish it and understand what they have. 

8. "Lovers and Friends" by Usher, etc --> This takes me back 2 when I lived in Charlotte in 9th grade. It had just came out and I remember being at school at this talent show. I didn't know anybody, so I'm just sitting there and this kid performed this song accapella. It sounded amazing and I remember the place going nuts when he hit that high note halfway thru the verse. 

There's alot more songs that I can connect with but not on the same level as the above 7. The 8th one is more of a story. I wonder if you would feel the same about these songs or be able to feel what I feel when I listen. Probably not, because we aren't the same but it's interesting. With that being said, do you know what songs trigger you on that type of level? 

I'm Gettin Hotter Cus the World's Gettin Colder

I just want 2 break down my favorite song of all time. I'd like 2 hear you thoughts on it. The song is Tupac - Staring at the world through the rearview

Multiple gunshots fill the block, the fun stops
Niggaz is callin cops, people shot, nobody stop
I wonder when the world stopped caring last night
Two kids shot while the whole block staring
I will never understand this society, first they try
to murder me, then they lie to me, product of a dying breed
All my homies trying weed, now the little baby's
crazed raised off Hennesey, tell me will my enemies
flee when they see me, believe me
Even Thugs gotta learn to take it easy, listen
Through the intermissions search your heart for a plan
and we turnin Bad Boys to grown men, it's on again
I give a holla to my niggaz in the darkest corners
Roll a perfect blunt, and let me spark it for ya
One love from a thug nigga rollin with a posse
full of paranoid drug dealers, to the end my friend

I'm seein nuttin but my dreams comin true
While I'm starin at the world through my rearview (see)
[repeat 2X]

(They got me) starin at the world through my rearview
Go on baby scream to God, he can't hear you
I can feel your heart beatin fast cause it's time to die (we)
Gettin high, watchin time fly, and all my motherfuckers
[repeat 2X]


Now I was raised as a young black male
In order to get paid, forced to make crack sales
Caught a nigga so they send me to these overpacked jails
In the cell, countin days in this livin black Hell, do you feel me?
Keys to ignition, use at your discretion
Roll with a twelve gauge pump for protection
Niggaz hate me in the section from years of chin checkin
Turn to Smith and Wesson war weapons
Heavenly Father I'm a soldier, I'm gettin hotter
cause the world's gettin colder, baby let me hold ya
Talk to my guns like they fly bitches
All you bustas best to run look at my bitches

Now I know the answers to the question, do dreams come true
Still starin at the world through my rearview (I say)
[repeat 2X]

(They got me) starin at the world through my rearview
Go on baby scream to God, he can't hear you
I can feel your heart beatin fast cause it's time to die
Gettin high, watchin time fly --
and all my motherfuckers/nigga can die
[repeat 2X]


In the 1st verse I'll break it down first. Take a look at the first 4 bars(lines). He starts off painting a picture of a murder and then goes on 2 say that no one stops implying the world doesn't care and then he even repeats what he said in different worlds to emphasize his point in lines 3-4. Depending on where your from you could take it as just when black people are murdered no 1 cares or you can take it as any murder, or both. It's really a perspective thing. 


Lines 5-6 can be taken alotta different ways because of the generalization. Again this is about perspective. Mine is that he transitions from his point in the first 4 bars with "I will never understand this society" and then he says they try 2 murder him then lie about it. I take that as thru him growing up they did that. I take it as how the system is setup. If your from the hood, like pac I think he's talking about putting gun shops, liquor stores and pawn shops in every hood on every block, puttin drugs in the community and all the other corrupt shit that happens then lying about it. Then he says he's the last of a dying breed, and time has allowed us 2 see that is true. I feel like his "dying breed" is people that care about it and speak 4 it instead of selling out.


Lines 6-7 is kinda just giving imagery on the last 2 lines. On lines 8-9 he calls those "sell outs" out. He says he wonders if they will run when they see him and by "him" I think he means the things he stands 4 which would be the truth about whats really going on. Then he proceeds 2 say even "thugs" need 2 learn to take it easy implying that no matter who you are you need to find a balance and which wars to fight. 


In lines 10-11 he says 2 take a break and search your heart 4 a plan. Then he throws a shot at BIGGIE n Diddy. Then in lines 12-13 he's sayin he wants shotout every1 in a dark place and by "dark" I think he means goin thru rough times. Then he says he'll roll a perfect blunt and spark it 4 you. Its just slang 4 him saying that he can help you feel better and wants 2. 


In the lines 14-15 he leads you out of the verse. He's talked so much about the world, but it's almost as if theres no hope at the end and he wants 2 make a connection 2 the listener by letting you know he's just like you til the end. 


I'll do the hook and bridge at the end..heres the 2nd verse.


In the first 4 lines he gives you another scenario, this time of how it is growing up for the average black man. In line 5 he says that you have the keys 2 ignition and its your choice on how you want 2 use them. But note, he never says what they are. The only context clue is in the lines before he talks about making money by selling drugs, however it's almost as if that isn't what he's talking about. In line 6, he eludes to what 2 do if you go that route, or what he had 2 do. 


In lines 7-8 he just says that the people in his neighborhood didn't like him because he used 2 beat their ass all the time and either he did or they turned 2 guns instead of fists. In lines 8-9 he says that he's gettin madder because no one in the world cares about other people or anything anymore. He's talking about the lack of compassion and the sense of selfishness throughout the world. In lines 10-11, he just compares his guns 2 girls and then says all the people he doesn't like will see them.


In the bridge/hook he knows the answer 2 the question, do dreams come true? He never says whether it's dreams as in when you sleep or dreams as in where you dream 2 go in life. But he says he's still starin at the world in the rearview afterward. When you look in the rearview you are ahead of what your looking at, but you looking back at it. That would mean he's accomplished what he's wanted 2 accomplish and now he's looking back it from a different point of his life like it's not really what he wanted but he thought he wanted it. He now understands what makes the world tick. Earth. 


Remember this world is composed of humans....earthly elements. I love this song...Unconditional Love is a close 2nd. 

Your Life, Your Choice

About a month or two ago I prayed and asked to see this world thru the eyes of god himself. I think tonight I could. It was odd how immediately when something was happening I was grasping true roots of actions and words. Despise the perishable things of this world and only aspire towards the things that are eternal. 


I was thinking what if our self consciousness of ourselves, some of them at least, are actually filters in life. I am very self conscious with women and approaching them if I don't know them because of the fear alone of being viewed as weird. What if instead of this not allowing me 2 meet women it prevents me from the meeting the ones that think like that and/or keep me on the road I need to go? You can't be what you are not. Next question, who are you and how do you know? You never truly will ever know, but you need to get in touch with yourself and understand what your heart tells you. Confusion occurs when the brain and the heart fight. You are what's in your heart. If your brain says be a bad-ass and your simply not a bad-ass theres only so much you can do b4 your exposed. 


At the risk of sounding stupid, who are you living for? Truly, the answer is yourself. You may ask me well who should I live 4? If your not living for someone or something, you better die 4 something. The idea of having 1 life and you should live it up is a little selfish isn't it? But then again its your life, it's your choice. We all hav one. 

Musical Feelings

Im in one of those excited moods about my music right now. I've been and am listening to all the beats im considering using. I have 19, well like 21 I'm considering. I have 9 written. I almost jumped the gun and posted the track-listing tonight lol. I'll save that for another time though. I'll try to give away some clues though here. I've been up in ATL a couple times working with the production team drum majorsATL. They hav worked with young la, gucci mane, shawty lo, lil wayne, oj juiceman and others. Its ironic that I'm working with them because my music doesn't hav the same "sound" as the artists above. They're really good though.

I'll tell you that 7 of the songs were produced by myself. So far, 3 have been by a producer from Orlando I work with. So 10 were made in house. 4 were made by 3 different producers and then drum majors have 5, as of right now listed. I'm considering doing another 4 deal beat package with them again, so I may have 11 beats from them total (I have 2 on the mixtape). It's so important to really have your own sound as an artist and its critical you get with producers who understand that too.

As far as features, I really don't like buying an artist's cd where he's sharing songs. I buy that cd to listen to THAT artist and thats how I feel about my product. However, I'll hav some singing features. There will be 10 songs that need singing. Whether I do the singing or someone else does I have no clue. I don't want features lol. I know at least 4 will need true singers on hooks only. As far as rappers go, I dont want any rappers really. However there is 1 song that I produced and I'm really REALLY liking it that I think I know someone who is perfect for it. I am going to break out a BIG D verse 2 keep him alive. I got a beat made around the vocals of an old song we did so his old verse SHOULD fit onto the new beat. we'll see. Anyway if I put together a 19 song cd, there should be no more than 6/7 songs with features. Anything else, I feel like im sharing my life.

As far as a mixtape before the album goes, that's pretty much complete and depending on the lyrics I write, I am almost positive which song I'm going to release first. It's nuts and produced by drum majorsATL. The mixtape will be free. 18 songs is what Im shooting for, no less than 15. I'm in that window. I'm trying to keep it original as possible as far as the beat selection goes but I do have some songs on beats you'll recognize. Not much though. Anyway, I do not know when I'll be finished with this writing. I'm just taking my time, all I have is time. I'm not going to do it half ass. I'm going all in when I release this music and promote it. If it doesn't work, I can accept that as long as I know I went 100% with it. Thank you to everyone who truly likes my work, it reflects my thoughts. Take care.

What goes around comes around

When you think about an argument, you think there is one topic debatable by two sides who view it differently. They can argue the topic because they themselves do not truly know the real reason behind its motives for it's actions. My question now. How can you argue with someone about what they do? They know their true motive. I can see what some of you may think and its well what if that person doesn't really know why they feel the way they do or do what they do. Everyone is on their own journey, let them go down that path. They make that decision, not you. I know, myself, I'm sick of when someone argues about what I do and they tell me what I reflect. Why don't you get your mind right? Don't use me as someone 2 blame for you not having your shit 2gether. First off, depending on other people or even expecting them to tailor to help your needs is foolish. You need 2 get up and get your own from whatever position your in. Some start better than others but theres always a way. No1 is going to be there when you fall in that deep hole n every1 will be there when u start climbing. Thats why you can only be a 1 man band. Do as much as you can by yourself. Everything else is work 4 hire.

Question 4 you religious people as this came 2 me the other day, I 4get what I was doing but wah la! I know alot of you people deem things as a test from god. I thought about it. I don't feel like god is going to test you. He gives you a choice and its completely up 2 you to make that choice. Free Will...it runs the world. Think about what a test is. A test is given when something is unsure, and its suppose to help confirm something. If god created us, and god knows all...why would he test us? He cannot be unsure. Therefore, I do not believe that things are test from god. It would actually make more sense to label these "tests" as offers from the devil. If anyone is placing force upon your will, its him with offers. Think about that.

Everything else, I'll update quickly. 49ers are goin 2 the NFC Championship this year, after that idk know. Just 4 the record this is dated so you can't say I didn't say it. Funny how people act one way towards you but their actions do not reflect their words. Example of actions speak louder than words. But then again it's their choice 2 do that and I can only control how I react 2 that, which is not to mess with them again or trust the words coming out of their mouth.

Shoot me down

i'm gettin tired of other people tellin me what I mean when I say or do things. I'm gettin tired of people telling me who I am or how I should do what I like 2 do. I been at this for 7 seven years. Can I just be me? I can just ride alone, cus thats all I want 2 do. I can't put 2 many chefs in the kitchen cus you don't know what I like 2 eat. I love what I do, and yea it's been a minute since I've dropped something so I got no room 2 talk about this. I just stay silent n wait 4 teh day I can drop my bomb. In this world, you notice that evryone has their own ways of living life based on their own life experiences, so inevitability you will FEEL different about how I do things. Most people will share their FEELINGS with me. Alot of people act like I have 2 listen to their FEELINGS. Your feelings, that turn into opinions, don't matter 2 me. Who are you? 

Its about time

that I address some things and concepts. I'm getting sick of people telling me what I should be doing or trying to make me feel like an asshole because of their faults. I'm not here 2 please you but you obviously aren't here 2 please me. If you were I woulda known by the actions that you've shown me. You woulda actually WANTED 2 hang out, not sayin it but doin it, you woulda actually text'd me back, you woulda actually went thru with the plans u made. But this didn't happen, so don't make me seem like the asshole when I concentrate on myself instead. Because I was the one who hung out with myself, I was the one who answered all my own questions, I was the one who made myself who I am in the situations that were presented 2 me. I coulda gone alot of different ways with the things that happened 2 me but i didn't and yea congratulations 2 myself, not a big deal...point is I was always there 4 myself and no one ever was. Don't get mad when I offer 2 include you in my life, you indirectly reject and then I stop. It doesn't mean we aren't cool, it means I understand thru your actions you don't plan on doin anything and if you do I figure you would say something if we were real friends. REAL friends make u feel good, not bad. 


you don't really know me. I dont really know u. old concept, same shit. We all hav problems...yea, but ask yourself how many of your problems were self inflicted? thats the difference between me n you....drug problems are not somebody else's fault. yea its horrible and sad but at the end of the day u placed yourself there. When I see ppl i know, I purposely do everything I can 2 NOT talk 2 them because I dont wana hear about your problems!!!! I would listen with an open ear, but truth is 49/50 of you don't give a SHIT about me! You can say u do but when it comes push 2 shove you are no where 2 be found. Fear conquers fake love and that's what 99.99% of you have. I don't want it, take it somewhere else. That shit I wrote about up there, im tired of it. Stop. I'm sick of realizing that all the people I considered my friends don't care about me the same way I viewED them. Any of you who know me know the lengths i'll go thru 2 make sure i'm exactly what I say I am...a friend. I'm starting 2 wonder if a real friend is possible 2 have? 


all the people I thought were priorities, view me as just an option....but I roll with the punches. I won't 4get the way u made me feel. 

I'm Clearly Insane?

Say we were sitting down. Eating lunch. Outside a coffee shop or something and we talked about this...


What if metaphorically speaking I start to talk about a girl I know? Could you relate to this situation? Or would you fake it to look the part? Would you say what's expected of you, or would you speak from your heart? Hmm say I know a girl. A verrrryyy verrryyy pretty girl! I only met this girl once, but we talk or used 2 talk occasionally and even though it was sometimes about nothing, it was still conversation. I can't help 2 feel some weird connection 2 her somehow, like instinctively I can say I like her. How would you react if I told you this? What if I told you the only time I met her was 2 1/2 years ago and I still feel the same way? Probably think I'm crazy, lol join the club. Its like just a vibe you get around someone, do you know what I mean? 


Hav you met a person who, not on purpose, made you do something you normally wouldn't do? Say I never approach women, because i'm shy. What if this girl made me approach her, just off that gut feeling you get in your stomach? Can you relate to this yet? And what if that person wasn't ready 4 what u could give them? Or what if they were scared? Or what if they just didnt want it? 


I could say a million things to her but in this world free will is what we all have. It can be a bitch, but it should be respected. Would you agree it's funny how you can develop a certain feeling toward a person off conversation and vibrations alone? And then turn around and the message it seems you relay is different than the 1 you want 2 portray? Funny. 


So can u relate? I wonder. If I could put it in music it'd be this....

Mind Rush

Went 2 ATL on saturday to get in the studio with DRUM MAJORS ATL. It's a damn good feeling to get everything you had planned confirmed by people in the game already. They work so hard, let them be an example of that. So far they've produced 3 beats for me and I just signed another contract for 2 more. So were looking at 5 total right now. I'm telling you the first 3 are singles. These next 2 should be too. 


If your in the industry, please take the time to look around you and really assess who you are messing with and really critique them. Ask them serious questions and see what kinda answer they give you back. Find out where they're mind is. All you can do is focus on yourself ultimately but surround yourself with people with the same ways of thinking as yourself. Really think about that. 


Other than this weekend, back in FLA it seems like everyone else has been going thru it hard. I don't want to get into any details but horrible situations hav occurred and I see a couple people's mindsets and it makes me sad because I know I can't change them, but only love them for who they are and where I know they can go in life. The only thing I can control is what I can do about the situations that I'm presented with. However, it feels like the bad news has got me sad and it's an intricate but yet peculiar feeling to deal with. 

Up Late, Once Again..

I keep seeing triple numbers everywhere I turn. I just saw 1:11 and I constantly see 1's and 3's ...no other #'s. I also see 407 alot. I could break 407 down into numerology but I won't. I've been thinking about some things lately. I want to say, which this can be possible, that if the bible is correct about revelations and tribulations .... I've been wondering how things will turn out. I wonder if my dreams of speaking to the world will fall short and turn into me playing my part in this war, which I've yet to figure out still. I do wonder alot.

I wonder if the people that I truly care about, know that I love them? I wonder if they cherish me the same way I cherish them? If they even acknowledge my feelings...? Personally I never thought that the world will end in 2012 and I still don't, but could it signify the coming of the 7 years of tribulations? It definitely could. I just get this feeling that I should tell people how I feel now before anything happens, and I can't control if they believe me or take it 4 granted....and that makes me sad to think about.

I wonder how many of you will switch up through fear and worship the antichrist.... I am nervous to play my part in this war, but we are truly living to die so deep down I can say that I am ready and willing.

It's beginning....

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Because I felt it was the right time

to take what was in my head and organize it.....well, sorta. Thats the purpose of this entry.

Inconsistently Balanced. That's how I'd have to describe the last couple weeks and/or month. I've had alot of different feelings and emotions that have come and gone, but I've balanced them pretty well. I had a yamaha motif that I bought and sold. It was frustrating trying to figure out how to sequence inside of it so the hell with it.

I did catch a break when I talked to old producers from ATL and I caught a nice deal on 2 custom beats. I recorded vocals and sent them off for production. I will get both beats back in my hands tonight. I've heard a snippet of one beat over the phone and it's so hard. The other is being described as a "Movie". I'm excited. These two songs SHOULD make the cut for the album, I anticipate they will. Both should end up being singles but you know how it goes when you pick singles before they're done lol. Or do you? ha ha!

I've been doing research on how other people like myself, it's interesting because there are people like myself but when you put my sort of twist on the situation, I become a man standing alone. It's interesting.

Does anyone else get in bad moods for no reason and dont understand why? Then you hav some sort of activity that you do that clears your mind/conscious (hopefully not drugs lol thats not how u deal with problems)

I mean I get in these bad moods and don't understand why I do, then just driving all by myself with the windows up and a/c on high unless it feels good outside will calm me down. I think one thing leads to another and it gets built up in my mind. It's like I start hitting these deep secret thoughts that I've stored away and it's unpleasant to my subconscious which starts to control emotions and I can't understand why. And if you think about inception when you read this, I've thought about this waaayyyy before leonardo was spinning cradles and building dreams.

Anyway, my point of this is to tell you while in this bad mood yesterday...I couldn't drive because I was at benihana's so I did some thinking and came up with this...

"For every new thought that enters my mind, a new road is created taking me to a city or destination where it transforms from a thought into an idea. From the city we create a world of ideas that is known as a belief system. A belief system, however, can be reached quicker by highways of experiences. Roads will eventually fade unless maintained." - CHARTT

What do you think?

Random thoughts on a late night

If you would like to know the mood im in...i'm listening to this song on repeat lol







Lol. I do like this song. But I guess I'll just list the things that run through my head right now. It's all I can think of doing. I jump topic 2 topic, sorry!


Anyway hav you ever watched people walk in and out of a gas station when you are at one? You should try it and see what they always walk out with. Cigarettes and Beer. Its remarkable how we deal with our problems.


I just bought a yamaha motif es6 and it's soooooooooo confusing. But after the last 4 hrs of shuffling through all the sounds and features I think I have achieved rookie status on using the synthesizer lol. I just need 2 figure out a way 2 sequence the sounds inside of Logic. (4 those of you in the dark on what im saying, dont worry lol)


Also, I mixed some guy's material from Miami. He own's his own independent record label. I was in the studio for 10 HOURSSSSSS!!!!!! no breaks lol. Let me tell you about a headache lol. Im so nice, i only charged him $50. But he was super cool. Of course we started talking about tupac and there were biggie fans in the room lol. I held it down though. Ohhhh yeaaaaa, I recorded a friends material for some mooney the other day. I gave him a good deal on a cd so I think I got working out and then some guy from kanas wants me 2 mix his material.


Thennn I have my own production team and songwriters that I work with, n from making beats and writing these rn'b classics, it gets tiring. I do find myself wondering when am I gunna get to work on my music again. I'm sooooo close to finishing everything. 8 songs left on the album to write plus 3 more that I need to produce the beats. 4/6 songs left on the second mixtape I have!!!! I hope this pays off. This hardwork that no one sees. They only see the end result. I'm thinking about holding off on releasing material and putting together 1/2 more projects I have developed in my mind lol. See I hav this book I'm trying to put 2gether and then believe it or not....i'm trying to write a movie script...guess what genre? lol....romance!! I'm nice with it =)


On that note, I tried hanging out with a couple different girls the past couple weeks and its not even worth it anymore. I really am so busy, I honestly hav zero time for a commitment 2 a girl. Theres one other time when I felt like this and it's when I was selling dope. Nothing came b4 that. Weird how this has replaced it huh? Not too surprised though.


Wenever I get a thought I want to remember I write it in my phone real quick, let me share some with you! coiendence


H/O real quick, I just grabbed my phone and its 3:33 a.m .... im tellin u its not a joke. 4 those that know what I'm referring to. Anyway here you go...


- the lack of unconditional love
- the meanness a single person can inflict with such a small act w/o even thinking twice about it
- in a world where being stupid is being cool, will I make it out alive?
- freedom of choice governs life
- a pig can't appreciate a pearl
- the things I want 2 be remembered 4
- knowing u hav greatness inside of you and not being able to let it out and havin to watch other ppl let theirs out
- im not crazy, the world is
- hell on earth, life is suffering
- take a look at me now, im everwhere you thought I wouldn't be
- nice guys finish last....but they never tell you where your racing too? 






Through all this, I've learned patience .... I will hav my day. 4 now enjoy whats in front of you.

What's on the inside...

I'm so disappointed and amazed with the stage of the world today. It's sad, to me at least, and most of you don't care because the things that the quality of your day/week depend on consist of things like, did you drink? did you smoke? ultimately did you do whatever makes you happy? If not, boo hoo you didn't get things to go your way. Facebook is one big place where everyone dumps their problems. Its like the garbage dump for complaints, excuses and people looking for sympathy. I mean defining someone's happiness is such a wide range, i'm sure that people who can appreciate this message have a similar view like mine but I'm referring to those whose happiness is solely defined on self desires and small unimportant things when put on a larger scale, you probably won't care.

I mean the point of this entry was because over the last week, i've run into some really rude people. It's really bothered me because I've self consciously told myself I should be nicer to people because that's how I'd like 2 be treated. Even more troubling is that all the people that were rude, were women! It amazed me at how I could be polite, respectful and hav a positive tone and still get some sort of rude response or negative tone back to me. And dont say I'm being naive because we live in a world where women constantly day in and day out complain about not getting respected, and if we view being vulnerable as being naive that is a problem, so check yourself. Also, I'm not saying i'm going around opening doors and wiping their asses being a predictable, stiff, monotone person but i'm being polite and respectful at certain times while keeping my individuality and it's just not appreciated.

It's like you want money but you do nothing to make you money but yet you still expect to get it every day and if you don't get it, you complain about it. When someone is nice enough to give you a little money, you can't appreciate the gesture...therefore inevitably only hurting your chance of ever getting money again...especially from that person.

To all the people who are sitting here thinking that I am still at fault because I can't control it so why do I worry about it, here you go. You have to be the change that you want the world to be. Life is governed by freedom of choice but let me give you a new choice or re-create an old one. Don't just aspire to be D or C grade people in life...thats normal, and honestly...who wants to be normal? Someone saying I'm weird is a great thing to me, especially if they can't explain why I'm weird.. because that means i'm not like you normal people.

2 end, I am just disappointed with society and how us as people and generation and this world can't appreciate niceness anymore. It's like we are searching for the evil in all of us constantly...why? I really do shake my head, this has been on my mind for the last 3/4 days.

Update on myself

It's been quite a while since I've last wrote in here. I've been very busy and had some weird things happen 2 me. Anyway I met Pleasure P's brother who is a songwriter and now we work 2gether on making demos of songs 4 other artists. Also, I went 2 orlando in early may and just last week and we did a 3 day stretch that turned up 15 new beats and then we just did a 2 day stunt that gave us 16 more so in 5 days we made 31 new beats. I don't sleep when he's in town...Im not kidding.

Ok, now yes! I AM still working on my own music. However I have some bad news and it's that I will not be able 2 release any material until most likely next year in early 2011. It just won't be ready until then, I am disappointed that I had 2 push it back so far but it is well worth it, I swear. I have 2 mixtapes completely written and I'm halfway done with the album. I figure if I can finish the album soon enough, I may be able 2 start working on a 3rd mixtape and start prepping the 2nd album.

Here's some leak info about it. I met a local artist from Palm Beach - Eric Biddines - who will feature on a song that I produced called "I'm So Different" ... I am really excited 4 this song, we will probably shoot a music video 4 it. I can already see how the music video will look like. I get these visions. I am feeling a black n white shoot for that one. Ok now I have 2 mixtapes and 1 of them is full of a combination of songs that I've wrote in the past and a couple that I've wrote in present time. The central theme of the 1st mixtape is a more aggressive type of persona that I take on. The 2nd mixtape is something like a pre-album to my CD. It's more of a present day feel and has my other type of persona in it, which will get you ready for the album. Then when the CD drops it will be nuts, I got some crucial songs. Any1 who can appreciate music and it's message within it will love it.

Lastly, I'm stuck writing lyrics for the last couple months. I actually just finished a song tonight called "747" that will be different. If I can speed up this writing process you may see the date get pushed up for material. I hope so. I have a lot of work to do in the meantime, so I am going 2 step away from this site for a little while to take care of it. Thank you 4 reading and believing.

CHARTT

JOURNAL ENTRY #8 and #9

Hmm I think will post 2 entries tonight. And a video 2 go with it lol. Here you go lol, enjoy.

JOURNAL ENTRY #7

I think the last 3 day's I've left the house twice. Here's the next entry in my journal though. Enjoy.

JOURNAL ENTRY #6

Its kinda late, i just got home from writing a lil at a friends. demoed some of my album, got good reviews. I feel good about it. However my car is dying and it looks like time 4 a new one. im happy but mad because there goes my money! Heres my journal entry...enjoy!

JOURNAL ENTRY #5

Ok, since I've been kinda behind on updating my entries with the journal each day I figure I'll give you 2 entries in one day to catch up. Enjoy!

JOURNAL ENTRY #4

Just got back 4rm poker in palm beach. I lost about $175 but oh well, I'll get 700 tmrw and then 350 on thursday so I'll take it 4 now. I was really upset that the magic lost 2 the celtics but its w/e. I'm thinking about season tickets next year? I got a good price 4 $2700 I can get 4 season tix...anyone wana get in lol?

I wrote my verses to a song on the my album the other day. It's called "Whats My Name" ... It's more me introducing myself to the world as an artist type song. I might make it the first song on the album...I might do an intro b4 it but idk yet. Anyway, here's journal entry #4...enjoy.

JOURNAL ENTRY #3

Not a whole 2 say 4 2day. Magic play at 830 so i'll be watching closely. I figure I'll go ahead and upload another Journal Entry today. Here's the 3rd one of the installment. 

JOURNAL ENTRY #2

Sorry I didn't post the next entry the following day I went 2 Game 5 of the Magic/Celtics series. The magic are 7-0 when I am in the building so I figured they needed me! Anyway here's my 2nd entry. Enjoy.

JOURNAL ENTRY #1

Hey everybody, I told you I would start uploading images of my journal entries that I have kept all the way since February and here is the first entry that I logged. You can view the large version by clicking on the actual picture and then you can zoom in by clicking when it opens in a new window. This entry is 5 pages because I was trying to explain the past all the way up to that point in time and include anything that I thought was relevant. It's not everything just anything worth mentioning. So all entries after are 1 page length. Enjoy and please note that I did not intend to post these when I started logging them.



I hope you understand me a little more as I continue this. I will post a new one each day. If you can't see or read these clearly then I will work to adjust that problem. Drake ft. Young Jeezy - Unforgettable...I can't stop playing it. The atmosphere this song sets is nuts.

I TOLD YOU

I was going to make this page look alot better lol. I'm not finished but I think theres enough eye candy here to release the URL now and let everyone come take a look. I still want 2 get some kinda application to let users or guests post comments in real time. Anyway, I joined twitter last night after I said I wouldn't. I am only there 2 network so all serious players in this game get with me.

I've been in a weird writing block thing 4 a lil while but I can feel myself coming out of it, slowly though. Right now I'm just being patient and using my energy to make lists, packages, idea's, and other productive stuff. Summer classes start today. I think what I am going to do is take 4 classes in the fall and then take like 2 in the spring or none. I will need a break here shortly. I hav to concentrate my creative energy on music. I contacted a music lawyer but he never called back, gotta call him again. I made a lil executive decision to shift gear a lil so i'm adjusting my plan just a tiny bit. It still looks good and i'm confident in it.

I'm about 50% through with these songs in writing them. I'll record them all at one time. I like to keep my energy focused on just a small group of things at one time. Next up on the list is 2 shoot this documentary. I think alotta people will be able to relate with me on a level they havn't been able 2 before with this. Oh yea, I will be uploading my hand written journal entries full of my truest thoughts from jan-may 2010. You may look at me different from this and about 98% of you don't know any of this about me. I'll scan it in so you can see it 4 how it is.

I got english 2 at 5:30 so let me gooooooooooooooo lol
Magic will close the series 2n though against the hawks like they are supposed 2

CHARTT

Bridges, Rain Clouds and 7pm

I think that's what Ima tittle one of my mixtapes. Put alot of random songs with those type concepts on there. I can picture it. I actually got the idea from driving home from the beach today. I was playing basketball and was driving over the bridges back and noticed the sun was setting and it looked amazing..but then when you looked, there were rain clouds in the sky too lol. It was just weird but very cool to witness. It just delivers that random, weird but fascinating to see/hear type feel to me. Symbolic, I guess.

Last couple days have been kinda stressufl, dont care too much really for it all. Just feels like I'm moving very very VERYYY slowly in the direction I need to go lol. I set the studio back up and somehow, idk how, but all my plug-in's from IK Multimedia had been moved around/deleted and now don't work. It's pretty annoying to fix because you'd think IK would have a tech support line you can call and talk to but they don't. So all beats have been put on hold for the last week and plus writing is limited until I can get all my beats in order.

I have however just got my gov't check back...750 dollars! lol and I still get state too. Plus I just handled all my unemployment stuff today, so I'll get 350 a week from now on lol. It just feels and seems like I am so busy with other things that sometimes I have to push music to the side for a minute. I never forget about it though. You know I am really not worried because when push comes to shove, I know myself so well that I will lock myself in a room, play beat after beat and write non-stop when it's time. I'm pretty fast when I am honed on it. I do alot of revisions though. Always wake up and look over it all again and recite them, make sure they flow good and portray what I want to say well enough.

I'm thinking about setting up another photo shoot too. All white background, a vintage type feel with the lights. Maybe turn some into black and white. Put a tux on with a bow tie, Idk if I should wear sunglasses or not(if i do it'd be aviators)...and take some bust shots. I think that'd be kinda classy but the accessories would make it sorta trendy. I just need some more location/outfits before I get it.

I was kinda angry typing this, but CASE AND JOE - FADED PICTURES came on shuffle on my itunes and now im kinda relaxed lol. Funny how music can alter your energy completely. I gotta go though, i got some stuff to handle for tonight. I promise, i've made a mental note to make this blog page look wayyy better.....soon lol

-CHARTT

www.myspace.com/onthechartt

is where you can find all my music for listening or download. All merchandise purchase, show dates, any news, videos and more. All artists or anybody in need of mixing and recording services I am the cheapest around. I will do it for free. If you record anything, just send me all the files individually and I will mix it down and pre-master it. Just remember, shit in will be shit out. So if you are recording with a computer mic, I can make you sound better but don't expect it to sound like you recorded in a LA Recording studio. Anyway, I got you. Just hit me up on one of my sites. I have links to all my sites I'm affiliated with on myspace.

I did say I would give you an update of everything I am trying to do, but fuck that. I will let you know I am trying to get J Holiday to sing on one of my tracks but it seems impossible to find that man's management info! Other than that, you will have to wait to see for yourself what is going on.

By the way, I'm painting walls again..this time we are on day 2 lol. This will be it though, no more after this. I'm actually being called to go roll right now lol. I'll be back to finish this.

Damnnnn i'm not done with that painting lol. its 4:22 now. Should be sliding off to Daytona for a couple days for SB. I wonder how that will turn out, I'm kinda skeptical of it but w/e...let's get it. I've got a company asking me to create a jingle for their character now, so as soon as my studio gets back up I gotta smash that. Really I just got alotta work to get done, musically of course. I probably will post on and off after this one because of the work I need to get done but I will not abandon this. Hopefully as things get going I can post links, videos and everything else on here so it's more attractive for your eyes. lol.

CHARTT

When I hear other rappers...

I just shake my head. Nobody wants to stand out anymore. They just want to simply make it. So they look at what they feel like rappers that have made it works and they just copy it. They don't see the entire picture of what it takes to be an artist...not a rapper! Kinda like society, if you live inside the box you wont see anything but what's inside the box. Ehhh anyway, I am so hungry in life it's almost deceiving. I won't talk too much or give you too much of what's on my mind but I listen to other people's music and then I turn on a beat I have and kill it. It's like just something else...idk. It's something way wayyy deep inside of me...I can only compare it to a fire burning, roaring, very big!

Anyway, I didn't want to devote this whole entry to other people, I was just elaborating on my thoughts vaguely. I had to paint my whole interior room today, picked out a blue smurf color lol. Its super straight though, I gotta paint the other room tmrw and slide by and grab a dresser for my clothes too. Then I may finally feel relaxed lol. In another sense though, I'm kind of unsure of what's about to happen for me. I have a couple options. Trying to make things happen finically and hopefully I can find the right prices for the projects I need completed. If I can get my finances together, I truly believe it's over. Lets check those prices lol.

I keep dennis on my mind alot too. It's almost as if I can get angry for no reason and not know why I'm mad. I just get in my car(late at night) and just slide listening to music. It sure does clear my mind. I can feel people's pain, especially his. I'm definitely not like anybody you would meet, but that's why I am me and you are you. Sometimes though, its as if I want to blow all my money on music and essentially invest in myself..maybe if I go back to being broke, like always, I won't have this stress anymore on saving my money I have now. But If I go broke and nothing airs out, I sure don't want to work a 9-5 getting by check to check. That's not life. I feel cheated almost and it makes me want to cheat society back in violent ways. Most likely I won't, but I've been there before and it's not somewhere you should experience lol. Noooo wayyyyy.

I've been keeping a hand written journal for the last couple of months and I will start posting the images of my journal on here for you all to see. I think the 1st entry provides a backstory so its about 4/5 pages but every other entry is 1 page long.

Well next time I'll probably give you all an update on what i've been working on and trying to make happen. Until then, I'll see you all in my dreams....

CHARTT

From Breadcrumbs to Birdshit

Thats how I feel about today. The music. Society. The world. I feel like alot of people, especially in masses are very ignorant. Very scared. Always wanting to feel safe. We live in a world where our thoughts, our true free minds are suppressed. We are made to feel as though we are normal people and have zero power for change. You will never have any power at all if you don't believe you do. When you get caught in the system, they got you. Don't let it fool you. You have power, just apply it. If you don't have power at the moment, you most certainly have the power to gain it! Thats for sure. Let me tell you...Always conceal your intentions. Understand this. Everytime you speak or do something in your life people are trying to tell you what your thinking or be inside your mind. They cannot do that, at least properly if you conceal your intentions.

It's not uncool to be smart and intelligent. Why would you want to grow up to be a baser? Grow up following others but feeling like you are being yourself. Those that believe they are truly free, are the ones who are the most hopelessly entrapped. I had a girl the other day tell me about a time she came to class drunk and on bars. She then proceeded to tell me that her teacher was an asshole for making her leave. Why is that cool? Why do people do that and think it's cool? I dont understand what is attractive about that at ALL. She then started to tell me another time when her boss didn't respect her so she flipped out and quit. How is anyone going to respect you when you don't even respect yourself?!?!

I really don't socialize too much with people, not because I'm unsocially apt, but because of the reasons above. I like myself and other similar people. I guess it might be my scorpio nature, huh? lol. Numerology my name is a 7 so hmmm lol. So is Tupac's. and so is lil wayne's. Weird. I see this place we live on very different than alot of people. Maybe in another blog I'll give you some background information lol. Anyway through my music I do express my truest thoughts and feelings but each song serves it's own purpose. I don't get technical and bore you to sleep with textbook words but I do get my point across pretty well I think, especially in the proper language. Well for now thats it. I'll fill this thing up a lil bit in the next couple of days...

CHARTT

P.S

I will take over..

...appearance is everything...

and im glad I can fool you..

HERES WHERE

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CHARTT