Shoot me down

i'm gettin tired of other people tellin me what I mean when I say or do things. I'm gettin tired of people telling me who I am or how I should do what I like 2 do. I been at this for 7 seven years. Can I just be me? I can just ride alone, cus thats all I want 2 do. I can't put 2 many chefs in the kitchen cus you don't know what I like 2 eat. I love what I do, and yea it's been a minute since I've dropped something so I got no room 2 talk about this. I just stay silent n wait 4 teh day I can drop my bomb. In this world, you notice that evryone has their own ways of living life based on their own life experiences, so inevitability you will FEEL different about how I do things. Most people will share their FEELINGS with me. Alot of people act like I have 2 listen to their FEELINGS. Your feelings, that turn into opinions, don't matter 2 me. Who are you? 

Its about time

that I address some things and concepts. I'm getting sick of people telling me what I should be doing or trying to make me feel like an asshole because of their faults. I'm not here 2 please you but you obviously aren't here 2 please me. If you were I woulda known by the actions that you've shown me. You woulda actually WANTED 2 hang out, not sayin it but doin it, you woulda actually text'd me back, you woulda actually went thru with the plans u made. But this didn't happen, so don't make me seem like the asshole when I concentrate on myself instead. Because I was the one who hung out with myself, I was the one who answered all my own questions, I was the one who made myself who I am in the situations that were presented 2 me. I coulda gone alot of different ways with the things that happened 2 me but i didn't and yea congratulations 2 myself, not a big deal...point is I was always there 4 myself and no one ever was. Don't get mad when I offer 2 include you in my life, you indirectly reject and then I stop. It doesn't mean we aren't cool, it means I understand thru your actions you don't plan on doin anything and if you do I figure you would say something if we were real friends. REAL friends make u feel good, not bad. 


you don't really know me. I dont really know u. old concept, same shit. We all hav problems...yea, but ask yourself how many of your problems were self inflicted? thats the difference between me n you....drug problems are not somebody else's fault. yea its horrible and sad but at the end of the day u placed yourself there. When I see ppl i know, I purposely do everything I can 2 NOT talk 2 them because I dont wana hear about your problems!!!! I would listen with an open ear, but truth is 49/50 of you don't give a SHIT about me! You can say u do but when it comes push 2 shove you are no where 2 be found. Fear conquers fake love and that's what 99.99% of you have. I don't want it, take it somewhere else. That shit I wrote about up there, im tired of it. Stop. I'm sick of realizing that all the people I considered my friends don't care about me the same way I viewED them. Any of you who know me know the lengths i'll go thru 2 make sure i'm exactly what I say I am...a friend. I'm starting 2 wonder if a real friend is possible 2 have? 


all the people I thought were priorities, view me as just an option....but I roll with the punches. I won't 4get the way u made me feel. 

I'm Clearly Insane?

Say we were sitting down. Eating lunch. Outside a coffee shop or something and we talked about this...


What if metaphorically speaking I start to talk about a girl I know? Could you relate to this situation? Or would you fake it to look the part? Would you say what's expected of you, or would you speak from your heart? Hmm say I know a girl. A verrrryyy verrryyy pretty girl! I only met this girl once, but we talk or used 2 talk occasionally and even though it was sometimes about nothing, it was still conversation. I can't help 2 feel some weird connection 2 her somehow, like instinctively I can say I like her. How would you react if I told you this? What if I told you the only time I met her was 2 1/2 years ago and I still feel the same way? Probably think I'm crazy, lol join the club. Its like just a vibe you get around someone, do you know what I mean? 


Hav you met a person who, not on purpose, made you do something you normally wouldn't do? Say I never approach women, because i'm shy. What if this girl made me approach her, just off that gut feeling you get in your stomach? Can you relate to this yet? And what if that person wasn't ready 4 what u could give them? Or what if they were scared? Or what if they just didnt want it? 


I could say a million things to her but in this world free will is what we all have. It can be a bitch, but it should be respected. Would you agree it's funny how you can develop a certain feeling toward a person off conversation and vibrations alone? And then turn around and the message it seems you relay is different than the 1 you want 2 portray? Funny. 


So can u relate? I wonder. If I could put it in music it'd be this....

Mind Rush

Went 2 ATL on saturday to get in the studio with DRUM MAJORS ATL. It's a damn good feeling to get everything you had planned confirmed by people in the game already. They work so hard, let them be an example of that. So far they've produced 3 beats for me and I just signed another contract for 2 more. So were looking at 5 total right now. I'm telling you the first 3 are singles. These next 2 should be too. 


If your in the industry, please take the time to look around you and really assess who you are messing with and really critique them. Ask them serious questions and see what kinda answer they give you back. Find out where they're mind is. All you can do is focus on yourself ultimately but surround yourself with people with the same ways of thinking as yourself. Really think about that. 


Other than this weekend, back in FLA it seems like everyone else has been going thru it hard. I don't want to get into any details but horrible situations hav occurred and I see a couple people's mindsets and it makes me sad because I know I can't change them, but only love them for who they are and where I know they can go in life. The only thing I can control is what I can do about the situations that I'm presented with. However, it feels like the bad news has got me sad and it's an intricate but yet peculiar feeling to deal with.