Ending of a Chapter

The ending of a chapter in a book is only a small destination of an ultimate plot. A lot like life. I am moving to South Carolina - 96 miles north of Atlanta - in about a week. I remember the day I moved back here. September 26 we left and arrived the 27th on a sunday - 2009. I was 19. I'm 22 now. Wow.

This is a beautiful town, somewhere I have so many memories. With that said, it's also a town like a black hole. It sucks you in and offers you little to nothing. You start to adapt to what's around you. Well most people. I've moved my entire life and have all kinds of friends. They all make decisions based on what's best for them, I think it's time I start. I remember when I got here, within 2 weeks I had like 40 songs written. I never recorded them. I haven't wasted all of my time though.

Hopefully moving will limit the distractions and help me focus on the things that I really want to do. I'm going back to the place where I fell in love with music. It'd be nice to get things going again. I think my OCD has something to do with it too lol. I'm so picky with what I write and record, I only want to put out exactly how I feel. I don't want to send the wrong message.

I was here for 2 years and only gave 1 girl a chance. A real chance too. Not a fake chance where you kind of slightly commit to a relationship to guard yourself. I jumped in unafraid of what was going to happen. I got my heart broken into little itty bitty pieces. :(   ....I don't think I regret it though. Someone will appreciate my heart :) . Idk who but someone will.

With all that being said. It was fun being back in Jensen/Stuart. I loved it and loathed it. I don't see myself ever living here again, or at least in the next 10 years. I have to create the future for myself, in my time here I've spent a majority of my time reflecting on memories and I believe it hurts me more than anything. I'm going to start taking people of the past out of my life and creating a new one. I am kind of scared but I know it's what I need to do.

Thanks to everyone who was a real friend to me and to the people who don't really know me, I'm sorry you never got to know me....the feeling is mutual.

CHARTT