Let it come, let it go

Sometimes I wonder why I keep writing in here but it keeps me a lil sane….I guess? I really want 2 get some t shirt logos printed up with the Flight 407 brand all ovr it. I got these crazy ideas but i'm not that talented to draw it. I can see it though so it can be done. I've came a long way but still got so far 2 go. I recorded a lil bit the other day, only a hook. It goes so hard 2 me. I learned a lil plug in trick in logic on how to make our instruments bang a lil harder. It seems like the dynamics jus open up.

I'm goin 2 ATL tues til friday. It is what it is. I got the baddest girl in the world too lol. The beginning of a relationship can be really umm not hard, but tiring? or challenging? Between trying to decipher exactly how you feel about certain things you hav a challenge convincing the other person the things you do understand you feel. =/ …. On 1 hand time tells all so let it rolllllllll n' on the other hand you feel a lil unprotected with your heart. The best things in life are the hardest to get? Trying to determine what matters the most to me vs being with some1 for who they are is another challenge. Sometimes I wonder if it can be done….well I know it can but evry1 is different in what they can handle and/or value. =/ = / =/ =/

CHARTT

I think therefore I am

I only show you what I want. I see this whole world different. Success and failure is measured differently to me. You can't expect someone to think so open when the things they surround themselves speak so closed. I met this girl I really like. I didn't think I would but I do. Alot. I dont know whats going 2 happen but no one does with anything right? It's really nice when I see someone surprise me, n she does that :). But it's a lil disappointing when you get let down. Ehhh you gotta take the good with the bad and let trust bridge the gap. I feel a lil more open with myself which scares me a lil bit because Im not entirely sure if ima get crushed or not. For once though, I am closing my eyes and falling back into someones arms and jus trusting they are going to catch me. Its scary but so rewarding.

im not crazy, the world is

CHARTT

My eyes feel like 10000000000000000 pounds

but my mind is racing. I figure i'd feed a post here since I haven't in about 2 months. I got a house n a roommate. Life is alright. Confusing as ever, but time will tell. I don't wana pass myself, I'm a lil nervous I might. Every dog comes home right? =/  …. My body feels so weak right now like I can't move. I wish I had someone to rub my back when I feel like this….I don't hav that luxury to pick up a phone n its done. I think the things everyone strives for brings along the things we don't want too. Mo money mo problems lol.   Dont take people for granted or the time you hav with them. Seasons change, people change. We all need help someway, we can't all be perfect. It's so easy to say fuck you to everyone. Headaches, many!

Btw I knEw ppl judged me and had their idea of who I am but damn I had no clue that so many ppl got me all wrong. Am I that un-readable? I'll say this again…..damn its so easy to say fuck you 2 everyone. That thought weighs so heavy and deep with me. Theres so much more 2 that but it's contradictory at the same time cus no one truly wants to be hated or not liked but life has me feeling like this sometimes. I swear the older I got the less faith I got in things. I jus don't believe these ppl or situations. I like to dream tho. I remember when I did trust stuff….is that the difference between children and men? Sounds a lil dumb huh?  

Life is what you make it, what you want is what you dream …. you gotta do what makes you happy. Ironic? ya.

CHARTT