What's on the inside...

I'm so disappointed and amazed with the stage of the world today. It's sad, to me at least, and most of you don't care because the things that the quality of your day/week depend on consist of things like, did you drink? did you smoke? ultimately did you do whatever makes you happy? If not, boo hoo you didn't get things to go your way. Facebook is one big place where everyone dumps their problems. Its like the garbage dump for complaints, excuses and people looking for sympathy. I mean defining someone's happiness is such a wide range, i'm sure that people who can appreciate this message have a similar view like mine but I'm referring to those whose happiness is solely defined on self desires and small unimportant things when put on a larger scale, you probably won't care.

I mean the point of this entry was because over the last week, i've run into some really rude people. It's really bothered me because I've self consciously told myself I should be nicer to people because that's how I'd like 2 be treated. Even more troubling is that all the people that were rude, were women! It amazed me at how I could be polite, respectful and hav a positive tone and still get some sort of rude response or negative tone back to me. And dont say I'm being naive because we live in a world where women constantly day in and day out complain about not getting respected, and if we view being vulnerable as being naive that is a problem, so check yourself. Also, I'm not saying i'm going around opening doors and wiping their asses being a predictable, stiff, monotone person but i'm being polite and respectful at certain times while keeping my individuality and it's just not appreciated.

It's like you want money but you do nothing to make you money but yet you still expect to get it every day and if you don't get it, you complain about it. When someone is nice enough to give you a little money, you can't appreciate the gesture...therefore inevitably only hurting your chance of ever getting money again...especially from that person.

To all the people who are sitting here thinking that I am still at fault because I can't control it so why do I worry about it, here you go. You have to be the change that you want the world to be. Life is governed by freedom of choice but let me give you a new choice or re-create an old one. Don't just aspire to be D or C grade people in life...thats normal, and honestly...who wants to be normal? Someone saying I'm weird is a great thing to me, especially if they can't explain why I'm weird.. because that means i'm not like you normal people.

2 end, I am just disappointed with society and how us as people and generation and this world can't appreciate niceness anymore. It's like we are searching for the evil in all of us constantly...why? I really do shake my head, this has been on my mind for the last 3/4 days.