I've had some just rude shit happen to me and I'll bite my tongue because I know if I say what I really want to say it will hurt their feelings and I hate when that happens to me but fuck it I'm guna have to start saying what I need to. The couple people I said something back to seem like they always say hey to me now. I just can't wrap my head around why people want to act like this.
I can't stand people who add me on Facebook and then act like they don't know me in person or if I write them to see how they are, they play dumb. It's so fake, why even add me? Your not my friend. Especially the people who never say a word the whole year to me until it's my birthday and you know who you are. Just stop.
Lately I've been getting drunk almost every night and I assume it's because there's nothing else to do. I feel like the world is moving so fast and it seems like just the other day I was still in high school. Every day more and more, I feel more jaded by the world. I still have no clue what I'm going to school for. A teacher, a lawyer, an engineer, a coach? Just a couple things I've thought about. I still question why I even write in this thing anymore, I don't have the answer to be honest.
I can't really describe the mood I'm in but this whole growing up thing doesn't feel right, and idk if i'm the only one who feels like it. For me it seems like such a small thing to worry about compared to the other stuff I had to go through but it's difficult.
Sorry for the pessimistic post but it's one of those days.
