I care about these days. I really don't feel anything anymore. I like to chase thrills I guess. My music used to fire me up but now it's just my music, my life, I live it everyday. The shit I say is nothing new to me because I been through it. When people tell me their problems, it's nothing new. Girls, music, money, people who don't like me, I mean fuck I just can't feel any feelings anymore. I've gotten a little reckless, but who cares. Live life, you can't let everything happen, sometimes saying yes to things you are on the fence about allows you experience life from a different perspective, AND everyone knows the world could use people who aren't tunnel minded. You gotta go make shit happen.
They say, "oh no, when your drunk or blah blah you are a different person." NO, you are YOU. All of the things you do drunk can be done sober or else you couldn't do it. It's just triggers that allow you to flick the switch.
I haven't wrote in here since november, I moved back to florida. Got a job at a fine dine restaurant, all the money is going toward my music being mixed right now and then to getting videos made. I have 13 songs done, 6 more to go. Studio at Plush in orlando is booked this monday. It's been too long, wow. 5 years. I know a lot of you people keep asking me about it and most of you just wana keep tabs on me hoping I fail and if I don't make a justification on why I did and you didn't.
People are weird. Society definitely shapes us. If someone with my same DNA grew up different than me in a different area, they would be different. Maybe not physically but definitely mentally, emotionally, etc.
For the record, I know a lot of you women think I'm out here fucking every girl possible, walking around left and right. You don't know me at all. I've had about 3 serious relationships in my life, in comparison to people who relationship hop through 10 different people in 2 years. I don't get attached to girls and when I do it's serious, for me at least. Any of the girls I been with, even if I don't like them now, are and will continue to be special people. So my problem sounds a lot less worse than the people who can't communicate their feelings, cheat, talk to 20 people and pick the best one, get in a relationship just for their own needs emotionally...thats called using someone, to make society happy, or because they aren't strong enough to be on their own at night time.
If this were a room, i'd walk out with my two middle fingers up right now.
CHARTT
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